Of second thoughts

But if I do not love her, why would I still care what she does,

Or how she fares on in class?

If I do not love her like I claim,

Then why would my heart jump at the mention of her name?

Or why would life suddenly become so boring,

When I am awared that she is not in?

Or maybe I am just too conscious for no reason,

Because some say love is not a choice, it is a personal decision.

But if I do not love her, why would I still be interested in what people say about her,

Why would I still dream about her and not another?

Why would I still remember the taste of her lips and still feel the smell of the scent of her supple skin?

Why would I care what she is up to and how she has been?

 Why would it be so easy for me to spot her in a huge crowd,

I told her I do not love her but now I doubt!

But if it is true that I love her not,

Then why all these second thoughts?